The House Of Troy ([info]shortysboy69) wrote,
@ 2006-07-05 22:26:00
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UPDATE
Pics from the last couple of nights are up on my myspace blog:

http://blog.myspace.com/tdilport

I am so fucking tired tonight. Today really wore me out. Mentally and physically. There are no words for how much work sucked today. In some ways, it feels like it's slowly killing me. Or, at least, slowly wearing me down. I find myself shutting down more and more. There are some things I still find joy in, mostly they revolve around my friends. But most of the rest of my life brings me down. Makes me sad. Makes me tired. My self esteem, which is always low, is in the toilet.

I'm not sure what the way out of it is. If there is a way out.

Oh well, I just needed to bitch a little.

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[info]rosencrantz76
2006-07-06 07:05 pm UTC (link)
Troy, I love you man. You may not believe me, but I understand how you feel. These are battles I find myself dealing with as well. Please, when you feel isolated or down, pick up the phone. I will listen to ANYTHING you want to say.

Countdown: 8 days till Wichita. You're gonna be sick of me.

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[info]hi_may76
2006-07-06 10:24 pm UTC (link)
It sounds like most everything has hit a stall, sweetie. And if that's the case, I'd say stop and then reboot. Far be it for me to presume, but is where you're employed the best place for you anymore? Obviously it was an excellent fit, at one point, be we all grow and change, or needs and expectations and projections change. There'd be no point to a stop/reboot if you're going back to what it was before. I was like this for a lot of my second year teaching. It was simply horrid. But I knew I wanted the job- that it just HAD to be better somehow. So, I changed schools. Way better. New challenges of course, and I'm not saying that the 3rd year was without its difficulties, but I found I had more hope and optimism, as opposed to survivalist tendencies and resignation to the horridness that I'd had the previous year. You know I love ya and want nothing but the best life possible for you. Remember, nobody puts Baby in the corner. Not even Baby. ;oX Smooches for you.

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[info]cha
2006-07-07 05:19 am UTC (link)
that doesn't sound good! :/ I hope that things get better - are there other opportunities out there you'd like to explore?

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[info]phishluvr42
2006-07-08 06:24 pm UTC (link)
I hear ya. When work sucks, everything else begins to suck too. Look for something else. Just look. You never know what you could be missing if you don't try.
We love you Troy. You are beautiful and wonderful. You are so talented and I know you're going to be fine.

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